A JOurNey - from Mind to HearT...to Whom I LoVE Most !!!

Kuch mahino pehle ki baat hai, wo june ,2012 ka mahina chal rha tha, main yuhin apne facebook pe raat ko baitha kuch doston ke saath chat kar rha tha. Tabhi achanak meri nazar ek notification pe padi jisme likha tha ki “this person added you in the group” – wo to apko pata hai ki main kis group ki baat kar rha hun. Maine phir us samay us notification ko padha, jisme pehle se hi bahut saare log maujud the aur kuch gossips chal rahe the…tabhi meri nazar usme se ek shayari pe pahunchi..jo mujhe bahut hi zyada pasand aayi…( ye isliye pasand aayi kyunki main jis type ki shayari aur quotes padhta hun, wo bilkul mere se match hoti thi)..maine phir us ladki ke wall pe jake saare quotes, shayaris padhe….jisne mere life ke scenario badal diye,,,ye isliye ki main  apne aap ko usme dekh raha tha…phir socha ki jiske thoughts itne pyaare n dil ko chu lene wale hain…uska dil kitna pure hoga…bus usi samay se maine use apne pyaar ke liye soch liya…

 Phir 1-2  din us ladki ke status, quotes padhne ke baad maine uske saare doston ke list dekha ki aur kaun se logon ki use baat hoti hai…phir main kuch khaas logon ko friend request bheja aur unse kuch baatein ki …is LADKI ke bare me bhi aur uske bare me bhi…aise aise karte karte kuch uske dost add ho gye mere me aur ye isliye kiya maine ki ab main US LADKI ko agar frnd request bhejta to wo mutual frnd dekh ke aaram se add kar leti…Phir main 3June, 2012 ko usko  frnd request bheja….kuch hi palon me usne frndship request add kar li…jiska theekana nahi raha….main khush hua …bahut zyada …phir maine uske pura information dekha aur ek ping kiya “HI ...........”…I was waiting for her reply bahut zor se…kyunki is din ka mujhe besabri se intezaar tha…meri kismet achi nikli jab mujhe uska jawaab aya..:”HI”…uske baad humne kuch chat ki us raat aur phir main main so gya….next day in night, i.e on 4^th June,12 again maine use chat ki…is baar phir maine kal ke time pe hi msg kiya…humne phir se baatein ki….khub saari baatein ki…

                                                Phir achanak kuch din baad WO gayab ho gyi….maine use khojna shuru kiya…mujhe laga ki itni mehnat ki pta nhi kahan chali gyi…maine uske added group me, mutual frnd se, sab se puchna shuru kiya...kisi ne kuch nhi bataya…kisi ko kuch nhi maloom tha…PHIR BHI MERA DIL KEHTA THA KI WO ZARUR AAYEGI....main roz fb check karta tha ki…koi to update aayega…kuch to likha hoga….lekin har baar nirasha hi haath lagti thi…phir achanak mere BIRTHDAY ke din…the first msg I got from HER saying only two words..”HAPPY BIRTHDAY” …I was just again again excited n very happy…mujhe bahut bada gift mila tha…uske do words mere liye bahut kuch kahun yea bolun sab kuch tha J J J….main phir se use ping kiya….lekin wo phir se jaa chuki thi….pata nhi kahan…lekin mujhe phir se wishwas tha ki phir aayegi wo…I was waiting on daily routine…

Phir achanak November 2012 third week me ke month me usne apna profile activate kiya n apni ek pyaari si pic ko publish kiya….jise maine sabse pehle dekha maine phir uspe sabse pehle comment kiya and bahut question kiye…then kuch din baad November last week me maine use raat ko online dekha and jaldi se ping kiya….bahut kuch pucha…(mujhe bahut kuch janna tha uske bare me ki itne din wo kahan thi)…maine phir puri baat ki,,,,usne batayi…phir maine 29^th Nov, 2012 ko raat me kuch der baat karne ke baad apne dil pe pathar rakh ke uska mobile number maanga….usnepehle mana kiya…phir thodi der request ke baad diya …magar dene se pehle usne bahut pucha ki “aapko kyun chahiye”..mujhe maloom tha ki iska jawaab mere paas nhi hai….main kuch der chup rha aur kaha bus yuhin….agar aapko man nhi hai then its ok, no problem….mujhe uska number chahiye tha ki main uska pura PAGAL WALA DEEWANA HO GYA THA…uske phone se mujhe mera pehla msg aaya at 11:49pm pe...wo kya tha wo janti hai.... is msg ke baad to laga ki ab to meri kaamyabi rang laayi….phir main uske khyalon me raat bhar kho gya…kyunki main deewana jo ho gya tha…

Kuch din hamari baatein chalti rahe…hum ache DOST ban gye….phir hamari DOSTI bahut badhne lagi….uske photos ko main facebook se chura leta tha…phir puchta tha ki main le lun aapki pic…wo puchti thi ki kya karoge leke…mana bhi karti lekinmain aadat se mazburr…main use har samay apni aankho ke saamne dekhna chahta tha…mere liye wo sab kuch thi…bus yahi main janta tha…phir kuch din baad hamari bahut GEHRI dosti ho gyi….hume ek doosre ka TRUST bahut badh gya..phir achanak maine use baton baton me leke achanak 6^th March, 2013 ko bola ki “AAP JAISE BHI HO, MUJHE AAP HI CHAHIYE – I LOVE U & I WANT TO SPEND WHOLE LIFE WITH U ”…



ye maine use msg kiya, phir phone pe pucha….main dar to raha tha lekin socha job hi bolegi to manzur hoga is deewanepan aur pagalpan  ke liye…. …use mere I LOVE U sun ke thoda ajeeb laga…iska sabse bada kaaran hai ki “Hum aaj tak nhi mile the”…wo kisi doosre seher me, main kisi doosre seher me…phir usne mera proposal accept kiya aur wo bahut khush hui….phir hum raat bhar chat karte…msg karte,,,baatein karte…main to itna zyada khush hua ki jaise laga ki puri jannat mere paas hai aur rab mere saath hain…bus phir hamara PYAAR din ba din badhta chala gya…badhta chala gya….main use bahut pyaare naam se bulane laga,jisme sabse pyaaara use ab tak SHONAAA hi lagta hai….

Haan hum ab pyaar me the….bahut ache se…dil se dil ki baat pahunch gyi thi…

Baatein hote rahi,

vishwas badhta gya,

loyal hote gaye,

pyaar aur badhta kya….

Ji haan, humne pyaar kiya…wo bahut pyaari si, jhalli si, bachi si, natkhat si, golu molu type , cuteiii pie shonaaa tha mera….hum hamesha gaane sunte, msg me song ka jawaab dena….bahut kuch pyaari baatein likhna…uske shayari ko sunna…phir skype pe ghanto baatein karna..usme song bhejna…you tube pe song dekhna…sab kuch bahut pyaara tha…maine use pehla song diya jiski wo abhi tak deewani hai ...use pata hai ki wo song kaun sa hai...mujhe likhne ka kaam nhi hai... aur usne mujhe apna pehla song diya jiska main abhi tak deewana hun “pyaar karna na tha, pyaar karna pada….dil dena na tha, dil dena pada..”….

Main hamesha raat ko usse bina dekhe yea bina baat kiye nhi sota tha…chahe kitni raat ho jaye…wo hamesha mujhe gd sd tc…kissi deke soti thi…wo meri ab meri aadat ho chuki thi…uska good morning se good night tak ka msg daily aana…hamesha baatein share karna…choti se choti…badi se badi…uske bina meri zindagi adhuri si lagti thi…uski KHUSHI ko maine apni ZINDAGI bana li thi…Mujhe pata tha aur use bhi pata tha ki main uske bina ek pal nhi reh paaounga…wo hamesha samjhati…plan karti…sab kuch humlog sochte samjhte….phir aage badhte…...But Still we habven,t meet...Ye uski shart thi...bus main uska tha aur wo meri thi....

Yahin se hamari kaahani bahut shuru ho gyi thi….hume pura laga tha ki hum ek doosre ke liye hi hain….lekin wo kehte hain na ki WAQT ka kya pata…ye hamari choti si daastan hai…jise na to main bhul sakta hun aur na wo….chahe kitni bhi log hamare life me kyun nhi aa jaye….wo aaj bhi humse utna hi pyaar karti hai…jitna main karta hun…”wo hamesha puchti ki AAP aise kyun ho??” mujhe itna pyaar mat karo…main hamesha ek hi baat bolta tha ki main aisa hi hun…aur aisa hi rahunga…hume pata hai ki OUR LOVE IS VERY MUCH UNDERSTANDING…n it will REMAIN IN OUR HEARTS ALWAYS!!!! LOVE U SHONAAA…