Monday, September 30, 2013

"Kitna Khyaal karte ho - Kamaal Karte ho"...



Badan se rooh ka rista bahaal karte ho,
Khud ko sambhal ke mujhe behaal karte ho, 
Kitna khayal karte ho, 
Kamaal karte ho...

Suna hai saut ke sahir ho,

aur aakhon me balaa ka jaadu hai,
Nazar ke teer se dushman nidhaal karte ho,

Kitna khayal karte ho, 
Kamaal karte ho...
Chalo ab maan bhi jaao, ki darmiyaan apne koi to rishta hai,
Zara si baat bhi kehne me "saal" karte ho,

Kitna khayal karte ho, 
Kamaal karte ho...


Tum hi ne chaak par rakkha,
Bana kar fir toda, tumhe hai gam kaisa,
Mujhe hi cheen kar mujhse malal karte ho, 

Kitna khayal karte ho, 
Kamaal karte ho...

Jala kar raakh na kar de tumhare pairon ko,
Sambhal kar chalna, sulagti aag ko gulshan khayal karte ho, 

Kitna khayal karte ho, 
Kamaal karte ho...

Tumhe aasaan hai shayad... har lamho ko zubaan par lana,
Badi aasani se mushkil sawaal karte ho, 

Kitna khayal karte ho, 
Kamaal karte ho...

Tumhe to pyaar ka haq hai, 
agar samajhte ho to ye dar kaisa,
karo tum pyaar jo dil -o jaan lagake,

Khud se bhi zyada mujhe pyaar karte ho, 
Kitna khayal karte ho, 
kamaal karte ho...



Hidden Feelings....




How I feel for you
is so hard not to say
But I have the fear 
of chasing you away

Times we spend together
I treasure in my heart
But in denying my feelings
I am just playing a part

I want to hold back
but find it hard to do
There is something so special 
in spending time with you

I can close my eyes 
to things I don't want to see
But I can't close my heart 
to things I don't want to feel.

I would rather risk my heart
to the possibility of pain
Than to never feel the joy
of loving again.

Kuch Yaadein....Kuch Ehsaas... Kuch Zazbaat....





Aaj Phirse kuch ajeeb laga hai,
teri baaton ko jab dil se lagaya hai,
kisi khaas ki harkaton ko aaj yaadkiya hai,
uski meethi aur natkhati baaton ko mehsoos kiya hai.....

Mere hi log mujhe khoj rahe hain,
na jaane kis baat se dar rahe hai,
zindagi ki raah me humne bahut kuch seekha hai,
meri hi nazron ne mujhe girne se bachaya hai.....

Meri aankho me aaj bhi kuch ashq bache hai,
tumhe yaad karta hun to wo bhi kuch dikhte hain,
mana ki wat ne mere upar sitam diye hain,
lekin us sitam se hi mujhe wo waqt mile hain....

Koshish karta hun uski yaadon ko rakhne ki,
majburiyaan aur kashish bhi nhi manti uski yaadon ko bhulane ki,
socha tha ki hum umr bharka saath denge,
palkon pe bithayenge, uski nazakat dekhenge,
haa wo ho na saka...wo ho na saka ..wo didar -e - manzar,
bus simat ke rah gayi wo aarzoo mere hi andar....

Aaj bhi chahta hun main use is kadrr,
ki pyaar karne walo ko bhi aana pade idhar,
humne door khasthiyon pe uske sath sapne dekhen,
kuch khwab pure hue, kuch pe afsos jataye,
kahin kuch haasil sa hua, kahin kuch toot sa gya,
ab tu uski har chahat aur adaaon me khud ko bhul gaye,
aur unhe laga ki hum unki chahat me badal gye.....

Aj bhi kuch kehte rahe hum, sunti rahi wo,
kaanpne laga rooh, machalti rahi wo,
ab to har ek pal me bhi uski zazbaaton ko dekhta hun,
uski adaaon ko bhi chahta hun, uski badmaashiyaan bhi sahta hun,
kabhi dil ki sunta hun, to kabhi dimag ki,
ab to bus har samay use apne aap me dekhta hun.......

Ab to baat aisi hai , ki har raat ek jaisi hai,
har din ek jaisa hai, har lamha ek jaisa hai,
kuch suni baaton ko sunta hun to,
to kuch ansuni baaton ko samajhta hun,
hum to har lamha zamane ke saath chal rhe the,
aur "unhe" lagta ki hum unse door ho rhe the....

Ab to wada kiya tha ki har ek pal  nibhayenge,
ek doosre ke saath hamesha zindagi nibhayenge,
hume kya pata tha hamari kashthi kahan jayegi,
seedhe raste dikha ke, ulte ko jayegi....

Maana ki "pathhar" dil ka kaam kiya tha usne,
humse kuch din ke liye muh mod liya tha usne,
hum bhi kya kam the, "mom" ki tarah kaam kiya humne,
har baaton ko aur zajbaaton ko sambhala maine....

Ab to har ek pal ke liye hum uske "aashiqui" ho gye hain,
aur ek wo hai jo TUM HI HO ...tum hi ho me kho gayi hai.....















 

Sunday, September 29, 2013

SorrY For UNKNOWN MistAke - Really Sorry...U R My BestEsT FrieND



When you realize you've made a mistake, make amends immediately.  
It's easier to eat crow while it's still warm.

Keep your words soft and tender because tomorrow you may have to eat them.
Never ruin an apology with an excuse.  


There's one sad truth in life I've found

While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.

 

  I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony

I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace

I’m sorry my friend I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue

I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed

I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?

I am sorry for what I did
I forgive what you have done
The truth is I miss you
Remember all the laughs we have together
Each day I pick up the phone to call you
&& go wait I can not
because of that fight I cant recall
Don't you remember?
All the teachers who yelled at us for talking
&&the insides jokes that we laughed our heads off with
&&the gossip & rumors we made=]
I told you we will be best friends forever
And I plan to keep that promise
I said things I didn't mean
and you hurt me by what you said also
Just trust me on this
I'm sorry
We seem so far apart now
Which is something I don't want to happen
You were my best friend
&& you can not deny it
If you don't accept this
then I understand
you will not be forgotten..

I wish We were Together...



You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen and even though you are far apart, 
you are always shining in my heart like a star.

Seeing you once a day may not be enough but just that one time keeps me going all day long.
 My eyes lighten up and my heart is full of love...
because of you and for you.


I am waiting for the day when I will see you again and hold your soft hands, 
touch your sweet lips and hug you tight so that you will never leave me again.


I think about you before I speak to you and after. 
I dream about you at night and even when its day. 
You have made me fall in love like no other and I cannot wait to see you.


Time may tick along at its pace but without you minutes feel like hours and when you are with me..
days pass away like a second. 
I need you so bad, come back soon.


Your love has changed me in ways that I had never thought possible. 
Staying away from you is like going to prison. 
Come back soon and set me free.


Your eyes won my mind and your smile won my heart. 
But after winning me, we are still so far apart. 
I await your return and when you do, I will never let you depart.


Some love stories make you believe in love like no other. 
Some love stories make you smile and others make you cry. 
But our love story will have everything because you are far now but later you will return to be mine forever.

A JOurNey - from Mind to HearT...to Whom I LoVE Most !!!


Kuch mahino pehle ki baat hai, wo june ,2012 ka mahina chal rha tha, main yuhin apne facebook pe raat ko baitha kuch doston ke saath chat kar rha tha. Tabhi achanak meri nazar ek notification pe padi jisme likha tha ki “this person added you in the group” – wo to apko pata hai ki main kis group ki baat kar rha hun. Maine phir us samay us notification ko padha, jisme pehle se hi bahut saare log maujud the aur kuch gossips chal rahe the…tabhi meri nazar usme se ek shayari pe pahunchi..jo mujhe bahut hi zyada pasand aayi…( ye isliye pasand aayi kyunki main jis type ki shayari aur quotes padhta hun, wo bilkul mere se match hoti thi)..maine phir us ladki ke wall pe jake saare quotes, shayaris padhe….jisne mere life ke scenario badal diye,,,ye isliye ki main  apne aap ko usme dekh raha tha…phir socha ki jiske thoughts itne pyaare n dil ko chu lene wale hain…uska dil kitna pure hoga…bus usi samay se maine use apne pyaar ke liye soch liya…
 Phir 1-2  din us ladki ke status, quotes padhne ke baad maine uske saare doston ke list dekha ki aur kaun se logon ki use baat hoti hai…phir main kuch khaas logon ko friend request bheja aur unse kuch baatein ki …is LADKI ke bare me bhi aur uske bare me bhi…aise aise karte karte kuch uske dost add ho gye mere me aur ye isliye kiya maine ki ab main US LADKI ko agar frnd request bhejta to wo mutual frnd dekh ke aaram se add kar leti…Phir main 3June, 2012 ko usko  frnd request bheja….kuch hi palon me usne frndship request add kar li…jiska theekana nahi raha….main khush hua …bahut zyada …phir maine uske pura information dekha aur ek ping kiya “HI ...........”…I was waiting for her reply bahut zor se…kyunki is din ka mujhe besabri se intezaar tha…meri kismet achi nikli jab mujhe uska jawaab aya..:”HI”…uske baad humne kuch chat ki us raat aur phir main main so gya….next day in night, i.e on 4th June,12 again maine use chat ki…is baar phir maine kal ke time pe hi msg kiya…humne phir se baatein ki….khub saari baatein ki…
                                                Phir achanak kuch din baad WO gayab ho gyi….maine use khojna shuru kiya…mujhe laga ki itni mehnat ki pta nhi kahan chali gyi…maine uske added group me, mutual frnd se, sab se puchna shuru kiya...kisi ne kuch nhi bataya…kisi ko kuch nhi maloom tha…PHIR BHI MERA DIL KEHTA THA KI WO ZARUR AAYEGI....main roz fb check karta tha ki…koi to update aayega…kuch to likha hoga….lekin har baar nirasha hi haath lagti thi…phir achanak mere BIRTHDAY ke din…the first msg I got from HER saying only two words..”HAPPY BIRTHDAY” …I was just again again excited n very happy…mujhe bahut bada gift mila tha…uske do words mere liye bahut kuch kahun yea bolun sab kuch tha J J J….main phir se use ping kiya….lekin wo phir se jaa chuki thi….pata nhi kahan…lekin mujhe phir se wishwas tha ki phir aayegi wo…I was waiting on daily routine…

Phir achanak November 2012 third week me ke month me usne apna profile activate kiya n apni ek pyaari si pic ko publish kiya….jise maine sabse pehle dekha maine phir uspe sabse pehle comment kiya and bahut question kiye…then kuch din baad November last week me maine use raat ko online dekha and jaldi se ping kiya….bahut kuch pucha…(mujhe bahut kuch janna tha uske bare me ki itne din wo kahan thi)…maine phir puri baat ki,,,,usne batayi…phir maine 29th Nov, 2012 ko raat me kuch der baat karne ke baad apne dil pe pathar rakh ke uska mobile number maanga….usnepehle mana kiya…phir thodi der request ke baad diya …magar dene se pehle usne bahut pucha ki “aapko kyun chahiye”..mujhe maloom tha ki iska jawaab mere paas nhi hai….main kuch der chup rha aur kaha bus yuhin….agar aapko man nhi hai then its ok, no problem….mujhe uska number chahiye tha ki main uska pura PAGAL WALA DEEWANA HO GYA THA…uske phone se mujhe mera pehla msg aaya at 11:49pm pe...wo kya tha wo janti hai.... is msg ke baad to laga ki ab to meri kaamyabi rang laayi….phir main uske khyalon me raat bhar kho gya…kyunki main deewana jo ho gya tha…
Kuch din hamari baatein chalti rahe…hum ache DOST ban gye….phir hamari DOSTI bahut badhne lagi….uske photos ko main facebook se chura leta tha…phir puchta tha ki main le lun aapki pic…wo puchti thi ki kya karoge leke…mana bhi karti lekinmain aadat se mazburr…main use har samay apni aankho ke saamne dekhna chahta tha…mere liye wo sab kuch thi…bus yahi main janta tha…phir kuch din baad hamari bahut GEHRI dosti ho gyi….hume ek doosre ka TRUST bahut badh gya..phir achanak maine use baton baton me leke achanak 6th March, 2013 ko bola ki “AAP JAISE BHI HO, MUJHE AAP HI CHAHIYE – I LOVE U & I WANT TO SPEND WHOLE LIFE WITH U ”…



ye maine use msg kiya, phir phone pe pucha….main dar to raha tha lekin socha job hi bolegi to manzur hoga is deewanepan aur pagalpan  ke liye…. …use mere I LOVE U sun ke thoda ajeeb laga…iska sabse bada kaaran hai ki “Hum aaj tak nhi mile the”…wo kisi doosre seher me, main kisi doosre seher me…phir usne mera proposal accept kiya aur wo bahut khush hui….phir hum raat bhar chat karte…msg karte,,,baatein karte…main to itna zyada khush hua ki jaise laga ki puri jannat mere paas hai aur rab mere saath hain…bus phir hamara PYAAR din ba din badhta chala gya…badhta chala gya….main use bahut pyaare naam se bulane laga,jisme sabse pyaaara use ab tak SHONAAA hi lagta hai….

Haan hum ab pyaar me the….bahut ache se…dil se dil ki baat pahunch gyi thi…


Baatein hote rahi,
vishwas badhta gya,
loyal hote gaye,
pyaar aur badhta kya….

Ji haan, humne pyaar kiya…wo bahut pyaari si, jhalli si, bachi si, natkhat si, golu molu type , cuteiii pie shonaaa tha mera….hum hamesha gaane sunte, msg me song ka jawaab dena….bahut kuch pyaari baatein likhna…uske shayari ko sunna…phir skype pe ghanto baatein karna..usme song bhejna…you tube pe song dekhna…sab kuch bahut pyaara tha…maine use pehla song diya jiski wo abhi tak deewani hai ...use pata hai ki wo song kaun sa hai...mujhe likhne ka kaam nhi hai... aur usne mujhe apna pehla song diya jiska main abhi tak deewana hun pyaar karna na tha, pyaar karna pada….dil dena na tha, dil dena pada..”….
Always be mine
Main hamesha raat ko usse bina dekhe yea bina baat kiye nhi sota tha…chahe kitni raat ho jaye…wo hamesha mujhe gd sd tc…kissi deke soti thi…wo meri ab meri aadat ho chuki thi…uska good morning se good night tak ka msg daily aana…hamesha baatein share karna…choti se choti…badi se badi…uske bina meri zindagi adhuri si lagti thi…uski KHUSHI ko maine apni ZINDAGI bana li thi…Mujhe pata tha aur use bhi pata tha ki main uske bina ek pal nhi reh paaounga…wo hamesha samjhati…plan karti…sab kuch humlog sochte samjhte….phir aage badhte…...But Still we habven,t meet...Ye uski shart thi...bus main uska tha aur wo meri thi....

Yahin se hamari kaahani bahut shuru ho gyi thi….hume pura laga tha ki hum ek doosre ke liye hi hain….lekin wo kehte hain na ki WAQT ka kya pata…ye hamari choti si daastan hai…jise na to main bhul sakta hun aur na wo….chahe kitni bhi log hamare life me kyun nhi aa jaye….wo aaj bhi humse utna hi pyaar karti hai…jitna main karta hun…”wo hamesha puchti ki AAP aise kyun ho??mujhe itna pyaar mat karo…main hamesha ek hi baat bolta tha ki main aisa hi hun…aur aisa hi rahunga…hume pata hai ki OUR LOVE IS VERY MUCH UNDERSTANDING…n it will REMAIN IN OUR HEARTS ALWAYS!!!! LOVE U SHONAAA…

I will be yours and you will always be mine

To My Love Life - Its Always "U" Only


Dear Shonaaa,(U know why I wrote this for u )…

We know that in life sometimes time and situation does not be with us everytime.
We always have to be pre plan to the conditional theories which means that we have to understand that what the other side people want to say to us. The decision taken by you and me both for our relationship is well justified.

 I know that why u have taken the decision to let u go from ma life. You always want me to see me move ahead in a good and respectful manner to achieve something big in life. I know this is ur biggest dream for me and  you want to see me for which u will be very happy and you are going on that path. Right now you are happy to see me that I m moving ahead in life. I promise you that I will not let u down under any circumstances. I am always with u…aap kabhi bhi apne aap ko akela mehsus nhi kijiyega…jab bhi yaad aaye…remember me…dil se I will be there for u…<3 <3 J

Apne hamesha kaha hai ki agar kisi cheez ko pana hai to ye kabhi mat socho ki nahi hoga, hamesha ye socho ki ye hoga aur mujhse hi hoga…nhi to jayega kahan…& aadmi bada banta hai bade kaam kar ke, na hi bade bade baat karke…

Shonaaa, hume pata hai ki hamari importance hum dono ki life me kya value rakhti hai. Hum aaj bhi ek doosre ko utna hi pyaar karte hain jitna pehle karte the, phark sirf itna hai ki ab hamari manzilen alag ho gyi hai. Hum samumndra ke wo do chhod hai jo mil to nhi sakte lekin hamesha kabhi na kabhi lehro me mehsoos karte hain.

Ap hamesha se mere liye the aur mere liye hi rahoge…hum logon ka pyaar kabhi na kam hoga, aur badhta hi rahega…I always love u till my last breath n belongs to u …mujhe apka choti choti baton ko samjhana, apka amile karwana, apka bamaashi kalna,….mujhe har baat pe “paleshan” karna….jo ki aapka haq hua karta tha…kabhi aapki yaadein mujhe itna kuch karne ko majbur kar deti hai ki main apne aap ko sambhal nhi pata…kabhi apke photo ko dekhta hun to kabhi aapke gaane sun ke hi man behla leta hun…maine zindagi me aisa pyaar karne wali pehli baar dekhi hai…mujhe apki har ada Kabul thi…apki har andaaz ka main deewana hun…apke khaap khaap…apka bhuushhhh karna…apka bachpna…sab kuch aaj hothon pe hansi ban ke reh jaati hai…apke baat kalne ka style…apka love u bolne me wo smiley dene ka styel…apke whatsapp status ko chura lena n apka daantna aaj bhi nhi bhula hun main….
Hamare ghanto skype pe baithna…gane sunna aur sunanana….apka skype emoctions ke sath wohi smiley dena…lagta jaise ki wo apke liye hi bana ho…apka wo raat ko hansana jab dad samne hona…J J :P aapke liye har wo khushi dhundhna meri adat me shaamil ho gya tha…aapki smile ko mujhe hamesha dekhna…aaj bahut mushkil hoti hai kuch cheezon ko bhulana aur bhulna…aapke butterflies wale msg…aapke shaadi wale msgs…I want to spend my whole life with u …I want to B_B_ with u n u only….khud bhar lo aap...ye sab soch ke dil mehroom ho jata hai…bus dil hain phir sambhal jata hai…..

Mujhe pata hai ki ab app bahut kuch soch rahe hoge, lekin jyada sochiye mat….ye sab hamesha hamare yaadon ke liye hain…aur hum usi pe ek doosre ko yaad karte rahenge…aise to hamesha karte hi rahenge…
I love u and always be loving u …mujhe apka saath hamesha chahiye….aap mujhe kabhi chhod ke mat jana…hum ab BEST FRIENDS FOREVER ban gye hain…apko pyaar karta raha hun …karta rahunga…apki jagah koi bhi doosra nhi le sakta hai….na hi le payega….mujhe pata hai ki ap ke man me kya chal rha hai….bus ap khush rahiye yahi main chahta hun aur apse milunga…aakhir majak thode hi hain hum dono…isme to koi shak nhi hai…aaj bhi apke diye hue saare songs suntan hun to khushi ka theekana nhi rehta…TUM HI HO TUM HI HO to mere life se aise jud gya hai ki kya bataoun…Hum apke saath hi hai…apke importance mere life me bahut hi zyada hai…apke mere life me ana aur nhi jana mere liye bahut kuch hai..i realy love u shonaaa…just please don’t leave me n be always with me…I know ki u love me like anything…n u will be…as u said…I m also doing n will be…hamesha..<3 <3 <3 <3 <3….

Love is…
Love is feeling cold in the back of vans
Love is a fanclub with only two fans
Love is walking holding paintstained hands
Love is.
Love is fish and chips on winter nights
Love is blankets full of strange delights
Love is when you don’t put out the light
Love is
Love is the presents in Christmas shops
Love is when you’re feeling Top of the Pops
Love is what happens when the music stops
Love is
Love is white panties lying all forlorn
Love is pink nightdresses still slightly warm
Love is when you have to leave at dawn
Love is
Love is you and love is me
Love is prison and love is free
Love’s what’s there when you are away from me
Love is…u hold...


At last i just want to say,

I LOVE U...Forever & Ever..




Thursday, September 26, 2013

To MY GF as a BFF...I LoVE U My Best FrienD Forever...



Everytime I look at you
I feel there's something new
My friend, My dearest friend
I don't know what makes you
Special in my Heart

It's been a longtime
That we are together
The Happiness and Sorrow
That we share to each other
The problems that we solve together
Our experiences 
That makes our relationship stronger

I don't care what other people will say
Because of My Heart's decision
My Friend, Listen to me
I'm Lucky I Found You
I treat You as My Friend
And now My Heart chose You as My Love

Because during the time we cross our sight
Or see each others eyes
I realize that God's Word is there
"The Beauty of a Woman must be seen in her Eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart the place where Love Resides"
I LOVE YOU MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER...