Wednesday, October 9, 2013

To Hard To "Trust & Understand" Some1 "U" Love...!!!!




Why is it so hard to trust and understand some one you love? 
Is it the fear of being hurt again? 
You been hurt so many times, 
Just when you think they are trustworthy... 
they go right around and lie at your face 


You feel hurt and confused...


You start to think love is not to be trusted 
Your heart has implanted the idea that love is not to be trusted no mater how real it seem, 
Now your heart became used to not trusting 


Even if you want to trust them you just cant...


You don't want be made a fool again 
When you hear the words 'please baby trust me' 
You start to think do they want me to trust them,

So that I wont have no clue what they doing behind my back? 
So you don't take no chances and you keep track of every thing they say to see if the story changes 
The very fear of being hurt again hunts you in your dreams 
It becomes the shadows that stalk you everywhere you go...


Now trust had become you enemy...



You start to think that honesty between love ones is just a lie 
One after the other 
Every time you want to trust someone you love 
A voice in your head start to tell you not to trust no one 
The closer you get to trust them the louder that voice get 


It screams in your...


You just want that sound to leave so you do what it said 
You trust no one except that voice 
Your forced to think everyone is untrustworthy 
You wished you had someone you could trust but it has become harder and harder for you 
Now trust in someone you love has become merely just a long gone memory 
Just a mystery you don't want to waist you time in solving 


Now love has become harder and harder for you...

All the times you been hurt has become your nightmares,

 that only comes out when you r in love.. 
It waits, lies dormant.. until love comes your way 
When it does, all you fears of getting hurt again just floods in your head 
None stop 
You just want to

break down,
 and
 cry
because any little thing could lead the way to a broken heart………………………………..............................



Tuesday, October 8, 2013

"Kabhi Kabhi Ye Dil Kyun Tu Rota Hai ....Kyun Tu Mere Pass Nahi Hota Hai..."




Kabhi kabhi ye dil kyun tu rota hai ...
kyun tu mere pass nahi hota hai...

Is zindagi ki shaam me kyun tu bhehakta hai...
Is lamhe me kyun tu machalta hai...
Keh gaye us paar hai zindagi...
Par jine ki rah hi tu kyun roj khota hai...


Kabhi kabhi ye dil kyun tu rota hai ...
kyun tu mere pass nahi hota hai...
Manzil door nahi ..badi hai aasha...
Bade hai sapne, bade irade...
Hunar to hai magar.waqt galat hota hai..
Ae dil kyun tu magar ladte hi rehta hai...


Kabhi kabhi ye dil kyun tu rota hai ...
kyun tu mere pass nahi hota hai...
Lehraa jaa ,zhoom ja is hasin raho par...
Machal ja behek ja us rangin mulakato par...
Par rehna hamesha kaayam apne irado par...
Josh se jeetna apne hi sarhado par...

Kabhi kabhi aye dil kyun tu rota hai ...
kyun tu mere pass nahi hota hai...

Dil tu kyun udaas hota hai...
Kyun gumsum rehta hai...
Kyun uss moad se wapas chala aata hai...
kyun kathinayi ka jhanda lehrata hai...

Kabhi kabhi ye dil kyun tu rota hai ...
kyun tu mere pass nahi hota hai...
Toad de chur de..us udaas palo ko...
Jeet ki pukaar bula rahi hai tujhe...
Mudna mat,hatna mat apni raho par...
Lad ke hi jeetna hai us beshumar lamho par...

Kabhi kabhi ye dil kyun tu rota hai ...
kyun tu mere pass nahi hota hai...

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Wo Train Wali Pyaari LAdki...aur wo Pyaari Raat.....



Bus 2 din pehle ki hi baat hai , jab main bangalore se mumbai aa rha tha...Kuch dino banglore me waqt guzarne ke baad wapas ghar jaa rha tha. Main kis liye bangalore gaya tha ....khair ye to sabko pata hi hai jo log mujhe jaante hain. Meri train evening ki thi. Main aaram se saari packing karke ghar se nikal ke theek on time station pahunch gya...Train 1 hr late thi...Wahin station me main ek bench pe baitha hua tha...chup chaap gumsum sa....bus kuch life ke bare me soch rha tha ki pata nhi aage kya hone wala hai....aur mujhe kaise kya karna hai....phir main achanak ek book stall pe chala gya ..wahaan jake maine ek novel kharidi...phir aake main bench pe aake baith gya aur ek cup coffee leke peene laga...

                             Tabhi mere bagal me ek LADKI aa ke baith gayi....main nhi janta tha ki wo kaun thi....kahan se aayi thi aur kahan jaa rhi thi.....usko dekhte hi mere andar maano ek alag si energy aa gyi....maine jaldi se cofee pee liya aur bus use thoda thoda dekhne laga....jaise dekha jata hai ladko ke hisaab se....jab bhi mauka milta to dekhta...wo coffee pee rahi thi aur head phone pe shayad song sun rahi thi...

Main aapko bus thoda detail us LADKI ke baare me batata hun - uska chehra oval shape tha, baal kaale aur curly the...uske chehre ko tho maano ki kitni fursat me banaya hoga...aankhon me kajal lagaya hua...aakhen bahut kuch bol rhi thi...matlab ki bina dekhe hi tumse bahut kuch bol deti ho...uske hoth jaise gulabi pankhuri jaise komal the...dono hoth maano bus usi ke liye bane ho...uske gaal ke ek side ka dimple to maano main fidaa hi ho gya...main bus uske aanko ko aur dimple pe to fida hi ho gya.....meri nazar hi nhi hath rhi thi...lekin main apne aap ko bahut rok raha tha...phir uski height around 5 feet 7 inch ke aas paas hogi...usne red t -shirt, black jacket and green color ki casual pant pehni hui thi...figure bhi almost achi hi thi....slim type...uski umr bhi around 24-26 saal ke aas paas rahi hogi...uske paas ek bada bag aur ek chota laptop bag bhi tha...aur girls ka bag jisme duniya bhar ki cheezen hoti hai...itne me main usse baat karne hi wala tha ki, bus uske baad hamari train aa gyi phir main apne boggy me chala gya aur wo apne boggy me chali gya...

Main phir apne seat pe jaake baith gya aur sochta raha ki KAASH phir se milti to shayad main kuch baat kar sakta tha....uske baad main uske khyalon me aise kho gya mano ki bus mujhe kuch aur samajh hi nhi aa rha tha....phir kuch der baad train me ek family aayi...uski full family...unlogon ne request ki kya aap doosre boggy me jaa sakte hain kya??? kyunki aap akele hain aur hum log family hain....pehle maine mana kiya...phir maine HAAN kar diya....almost 8pm ke aas paas main doosre boggy me chala gya aur main jaise hi wahan gya meri to KISMAT chamak gyi...WO LADKI wahin maujood thi...mere aankho ke saamne mujhe yakeen nhi ho rha tha ki main bus 3 ghante ke andar is ladki se doobara mila...is baar to main soch liya ki kuch ho jaye main to baat karta hi jaounga...


                      Meri to kuch samajh me hi nhi aa rha tha ki main kya karun??? kya bolun ??kaise shuruat karun??? main itna kho gya tha ki ...meri aankhen bahut zyada excited thi kuch bolne ke liye....zubaan pe bahut shabd the...magar kaise shuru karun ye samajh nhi aa paa rha tha....Phir dinner ka time ho gya tha....usne order kiya ...maine bhi order kiya....jaise hi khana aaya .....maine newspaper nikaal ke diya and tissue paper ki shayad use bhi zarurat padegi...ye dono kuch main hamesha main apne saath leke chalta hun travelling ke time pe....maine use wo dono cheezen di...usne THANKS kaha...uski muh nikla pehla shabd mere liye ek starting point tha baat aage badhane ke liye....phir maine bola. - WELCOME....phir dheere dheere main baat karne laga....humlog aadhi raat baat karne lage....phir usi dauraan usne apna naam bataya,  maine bhi apna naam bataya...then again we exchanged our thoughts and feelings, songs , like dislikes n all....maine phir chain ki saans li ki ....ab to raat bhi achi kategi aur next day bhi....kyunki use bhi mumbai hi jana tha...

Phir kuch aur raat ho gyi...12 se zyada ho gya...uske bed upper berth tha....hum dono ek saath wahin baith ke baat karne lage....pure train me hume log dekh rahe the....phir aur baatein hui....kuch jokes hue....phir usi time maine USKI HANSI pehli baar dekhi...ufffff!!!!!!!!! main mar jaawan....kya adaayein thi....usne kaha kya main aapko NEIL bula sakti hun...i said fine....uska naam to main nhi bata sakta lekin maine bhi use ek short form naam ka diya jisse wo kaafi khush hui....wo job kar rhi thi aur MBA distance se bhi kar rhi thi....phir baat karte karte hum log dono ki kab aankh lag gyi pata hi nhi chala....aur maje ki baat ye ho gyi ki MAIN USKE BERTH PE HI SO GYA.....phir kuch ghante baad around 3.30am pe meri neend khuli to maine dekha ki main uske bed pe hun...jaldi se main apne bed pe gya...aur use ache se blanket de ke main bhi so gya...

Morning hui to usne mujhe jagaya...mera bhi upper berth hi tha...just samne wala....meri aankh khuli to dekha saamne WOHI hai...usne aawaz di ki kaafi time ho gya NEIL uth jao....n said GOOOOOOOD MORNING.....phir humne coffee liya ....breakfast kiya...aur usne muhe pucha ki kal tum mere bed pe hi so hi gye the na???? maine bola haan aankh kab lag gyi pata hi nhi chala....uske baad uske hothon pe muskaan si aa gyi...aur at that time main things come...we exchanged our numbers... bus humlog ka time itna jaldi ho gya ki hamare station aa gya....hum logon ne ek doosre ko BYE karte hi rahe...jab tak hum dono ki aakhen ek doosre ko dekhti rahi....

Bus, kya bolun......kya safar rha mera.....kuch baat thi usme...kuch innocent sa tha usme....kuch pyaari bachi type bhi thi wo....kaafi baatein jo usne ki jo mere dil ko chhu gyi....wo raat ko uske bed pe aankh lagna ek sapne se kam nhi tha....bus kya bolun....aaj bhi wo raat kabhi nhi bhul sakta main apne zindagi me....mera LUCK kaho yea uska LUCK ki safar itna acha beeta ki kya bataoun....AAj bhi uska NEIL kahana mere kaano me ek alag sa positive energy deta hai....Bus...kya bolun main...yea to USE KUCH ho gya tha...yea to MUJHE KUCH ho gya...isliye bolte hain na...KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI!!!!!







Thursday, October 3, 2013

Wo Kuch Galatfahmiyaan....




Pata nhi kaise kahun ??? kya kahun??? Kis kadar kahun??? Maafi to mangi hai maine....
Maine wo jaanbhuj ke nhi ki....bus pehle se likh ke rakha tha...aur paste kiya to ho gya...

Wo kehte hain na ki maafi mangne wale se bada MAAF karne wala hota hai...

WO kuch dino se naaraz hai mujhse....aapka naaraz hona lazmi hai hamare liye...lekin is kadar gussa karna theek nhi....maine jo kaam kiya wo mujhe maloom nhi chala ki kuch problm ho sakti hai ...baad me maine ksi aur se "us" baare me baat ki to pata chala ki haan... ...haan...MUJHSE galti to hui hai kuch badi type ki bhi ho sakti thi.....aapko mere upar jitna gussa karna hai kijiye.....mujhe thappar maad lijiye....mujhe daant dijiye....but aise chup mat rahiye.....

Bahut dukh hota hai dil me ki meri wajah se aap suffer kare...mujhe apne upar uska aabhas hai....meri bus itni si hi dua hai ki aap khush rahen....sab kuch acha ho...apko hamesha main yaad karta hun...aur pray me bhi rakhta hun...khud se zyada...wo to apko pata hi hai...apke baare me kabhi bura nhi sochta....Mujhe maloom hai ki aapko bahut hi gussa aya hoga...lekin aapse zyada khushi na to mujhe kabhi mili hai aur na hi mil sakti hai....aap mere life ke sabse important part ho...

Mana ki hum utne mature nhi hai abhi...apse maine bahut kuch seekha hai....meri aankho me ab aansu nhi aate hai...kyun uski wajah se aapki aankho me main aansu nhi dekh sakta....main chup chaap sa rehta hun hamesha....bus apko kab yaad nhi karta hunga...ye to apko maloom hi hai...

Abhi main bus yahi bol sakta hun ki...aap bus khush rahen aur salamat rahen....aur aap hamare dil me...aur hamare prayer me hamesha rahengi....kyunki kitna pyaar karte hain tumko sanam....




KHAAS APKE LIYE YE LINES:-


Tumse mil ke maine jaana
Ishq kya mohabbat kya
Bhool baitha sab kuchh main to
Din kya, raat kya.. chaahat mein..
Khali salam dua mulakat mein
Chehre ki rangat badal rahi hai teri sohbat mein…
Khaali salaam dua mulaakaat mein
Chehare ki rangat badal rahi hai teri sohbat mein
Yeh tune kya kiya..
Yeh tune kya kiya..
Dooba main dil ki jannat mein
Khali salam duaa mulakat mein
Chehre ki rangat badal rahi hai teri sohbat mein…
Jo khaalipan tha
Jo soona man tha
Woh khil utha hai jaane khuda
Badal raha hai har ek mausam
Bechain dil ka jaane khuda
Jaane khuda.. jaane khuda..
Khali salam dua mulakat mein
Chehare ki rangat badal rahi hai teri sohbat mein…
Bus yeh mere lafz aapke liye....sirf aapke liye....:) <3







Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Ek Ladki Hai Wo Pyaari Si...


Right as RainEk Ladki Hai wo Pyari Si...
Jo Tareef Pe Apni Sharmaati Hai...

Rakhti Hai Aansu Bhar Ke Ankho Me...
Par Na Jaane Kiss Baat Par Harwaqt Khilkhilati Hai...

Hota Hai Kabhi Mann Chanchal Uska...
Toh Kabhi Woh Adaa Pe Apni Itraati Hai...

Ishq Na Chhoo Sake Daaman Jiska...
Uski Woh Deewani Bann Jaati Hai...

Uski Khoobsurti K Aage...
Chaand Ko V Sharm Aati hai...

Masoomiyat Hai Bachcho Jaisi...
Muskaan Se Dil Jeet Le Jati hai...

Karti Hai Zameen Deedar Uska...
Jab Bhi Woh Hawa Ki Tarah Zameen Par Lehraati Hai...

Karte Hai Pyar Hum Bhi Usse Bahut...
Par Yeh Dil Izhaar Karne se Katraati Hai...

Ek Ladki Hai wo Pyaari Si...
Jo Mere Dil Ko Chhoo Jati Hai...!!!
25 beautiful moments captured in rain

Kaise Kahun Ki Kaun Ho Tum...

Mere liye meri Duniya ho Tum, 
Chhoo ke jo Guzre wo Hawa ho Tum,

Maine jo Mangi wo Dua ho Tum, 
Kiya maine Mehsoos wo Ehsas ho Tum,

Meri Nazar ki Talash ho Tum, 
Meri Zindagi ka Qarar ho Tum,

Mere Intezar ki Rahat ho Tum,
Mere Dil ki Chahat ho Tum,

Maine jo Chaha wo Pyar ho Tum,
Tum ho tu Duniya hai Meri,

Kaise Kahun k Sirf Pyaar Nahin,
Mere Lie Meri SHONA ho Tum...!!!


"A Girl..."



When a girl is quite...
Millions of things are running in her mind...

When a girl is not arguing...
She is thinking deeply...


When a girl looks at u with eyes full of questions...
She is wondering how long you'll be around...

When a girl answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds...
She is not at all fine...

When a girl stares at you...
She is wondering why you are lying...

When a girl lays on your chest...
She is wishing for you to be hers forever...

When a girl calls you everyday...
She is seeking for your attention...

When a girl sms u everyday...
She wants you to reply at least once...

When a girl says I LOVE YOU...
She means it...

When a girl says that she can't live without you...
She has made up her mind that you are her future...

When a girl says I MISS YOU...
No one in this world can miss you more than her...!!!

A Letter From A Unborn Baby...



Hi mom ,

how are you. i m doin jus fin thanx.
only a few days have gone by since i ws conceived and now i am growin in yr tummy.
I cant xplain hw happy I m 2 know that u r my mom.
it also make me proud to know that i was conceived due to love. 
i am sure i am going to be the happiest baby alive.....

mom 1 mnth has gone and i have started to notice how my body is forming. i know i am not much to look at now but jus wait and see I'll make u so proud! even though i am feeling happy i sense something is wrong.....you seem to be having strange thoughts that leave me restless and worried, but I am sure everything is doing to be ok! dnt despair...

2 n 1/2 mnth have gone by mom, i now have hand that i can use to play with. oh i am so happy.
mom plz tell me wts wrong? why are you crying so much lately? why do you and dad argue every time you meet up with one another? dont u guys want me any more? i m goin to do everything i can to make you want me..

3mnth hv now past mom , bt u still seem 2 be so sad. i am not sure what is goin on , i am so confused. today we wnt 2 see the doctor nd he booked an appointment for you tomorrow. i dnt know y i m feelin so good n u r not!!!!!

mom whr r we goin? whts happening? mom this is not normal time u take yr afternoon nap,, dnt lie down. besides i am not tired i still want to play
ufffff!!!!! what is this thing doin inside of my house
is it a new toy................... hey its sucking up my house..
plz dnt tug at me! no..... dnt hit me you hurting me!!!!!!!!!!
cant u see i'm still small i cant defend myself!
mom stop them, that's my hand!!!
mom, my leg , they ripping it out!!!
defend me mom
he....l...p ...me ..mo...m
tell them 2 stop, i promise i'll stop kicking them if they do
how is it possible that a human being can be doin this to me?
17 yrs have gone by since you made that fateful decision. how you still suffer over the very thought of it. plz dnt cry remember that i love you and i'll be waiting for you with open arms

love u lots...
your baby...!!!

Meaning Of BEST FRIENDS FOREVER (BFF)




True best friendship is perhaps the only relation that survives the trials and tribulations of time and remains unconditional. A unique blend of affection, loyalty, love, respect, trust and loads of fun is perhaps what describes the true meaning of friendship. 

Similar interests, mutual respect and strong attachment with each other are what friends share between each other. These are just the general traits of a friendship. To experience what is friendship, one must have true best friends, who are indeed rare treasure... 

Friendship is a feeling of comfort and emotional safety with a person. It is when you do not have to weigh your thoughts and measure words, before keeping it forth before your friend. It is when someone knows you better than yourself and assures to be your side in every emotional crisis. It is when you can sleep fighting and get another morning with a better understanding. Friendship is much beyond roaming together and sharing good moments, it is when someone comes to rescue you from the worst phase of life. Friendship is eternal...
Different people have different definitions of friendship. For some, it is the trust in an individual that he / she won't hurt you. For others, it is unconditional love. There are some who feel that friendship is companionship. People form definitions based on the kind of experiences they have had. This is one relation that has been nurtured since time immemorial. There are famous stories about friends in mythologies of different religions all over the world. They say a person who has found a faithful friend has found a priceless treasure...

Psychologically speaking, friendship may be defined as 'a dynamic, mutual relationship between two individuals. As children become friends, they negotiate boundaries within which both partners function. This helps them to function like healthy individuals in life as they learn to draw a line as and when needed in a relation. This greatly helps in the emotional development of an individual. However, any relation needs constant nurturing and development from all the people that are involved in one. Friendship cannot survive if one person makes all the effort to sustain it without any mutual recognition from others...

Since friendship starts the moment a child starts socializing, the kind of friends that the child chooses should be taken care of till the time he / she learns to differentiate between right and wrong. Wrong peers or lack of socializing can lead to severe psychological traumas and disorders, finally leading to social maladjustment. The correct peer group is essential for the development of the personality of a child. Both positive and negative experiences refine the personality of the individual. Thus it is essential that you find friends who are compatible with you on an emotional and psychological basis...!!!


* "F" is for Fun...That friends share when they are together... 

* "R" is for Reliability...A true friend is someone that you can always rely on...

* "I" is for Interest...Someone who is genuinely interested in you, your fears, joys, and life...

* "E" is for Energy...They pick you up when you are down, and give you the energy to go on and believe in yourself...

* "N" is for Nothing...Nothing is ever too much, no matter what time it is, night or day...

* "D" is for Distance...Although the miles may separate you, a true friend is never far away...

* "S" is for Secrets...Your feelings and personal/private thoughts that you can only share with a friend...

* "H" is for Happiness...The way I feel when we are together...

* "I" is for Inseparable...Through good times and bad, tears and laughter. A friend will always be there for you just friends like u...

* "P" is for Perfect...The friendship that you and I share. You make normal days into special days. Turn my tears of sorrow into tears of laughter. My world is a brighter place due to the friendship and love that we share...!!!

"Aakhir Ye Pyaar Kaise Hota Hai....???"



Ek din yunhi baithe baithe... 

Dil mein ek khayal aaya...
Yeh pyaar aakhir kya hota hai ???
Yeh pyaar aakhir kaise hota hai ??? 

Jab din ka chhain aur raaton ki neend udd jaye...
Uske khayalon se fursat na mill paye...
Har waqt dil mein ussi ki tasveer nazar aaye...
Har lamha uski hi baaton se dil chhu jae...Kya aakhir yahi pyaar hota hai ??? 

Dil mein ussi se milne ki tadap ho...
Saanson se ussi ke liye jeene ki jhadap ho...
Uski ek jhalak paane ko dil sada betaab ho...
Zindagi uske liye apni ek khuli keetab ho...
Kya aakhir yahi pyaar hota hai ??? 

Har saans pe uska naam likha ho...
Har khat mein jiske liye paigaam likha ho...
Nazaron mein usi ka intezaar ho...
Aur ussi par sabse jyada aitbaar ho...
Kya aakhir yahi pyaar hota hai ??? 

Jeena mushkil lage jiske bin...
Kaate kate na fir yeh din...
Uske khayalo mein bhool jaye khud ko hum...
Yahin dua karein dil ke usse ho na koi gam...
Kya aakhir yahi pyaar hota hai ??? 

Aane se uske dil baag baag ho jaye...
Berang Zindagi mein sab rang ghull jaye...
Yaadon mein uski tanhaai bhi raas aa jaye...
Dil mein bas ussi ki milan ki pyaas jaag jaye...
Kya aakhir yahi pyaar hoota hai ??? 

TAB AAYI DIL SE AWAZ...
KI KUCH YUN HOTA HA PYAAR...
JISME KUCH PAANE KI CHAAH NAHI...NA KUCH LUTAANE KI TAKAT HO...CHHOT AGAR USE LAGE TO DARD APNE DIL MEIN MEHSUS HO...
JAAN JAYE AAP UNKI HAR WO BAAT...JO ABHI LABON PAR AAYI NA HO...
HAR KADAM SAATH JISKE AAPKI PARCHAAI HO...
AUR USKI EK MUSKAAN K LIYE KHUD KO MITANE KI AAP MEIN SACHAAI HO... 
YEH PYAAR KUCH AISA HOTA HAI...
OR CHAHE JAISA V HO...YE PYAAR BADA PAAR SE BHI ZYADA PYAARA HOTA HAI...!!!